So for the last few months, I've had a rough time professionally. I had been interviewing with this really big-shot company. It went on for almost three months. I was always clearing all the successive rounds and clutching on a little tighter each time to the hope that I would get the job. All of a sudden, this job was the only thing I wanted in life. Like really really bad.
And as life/luck/randomness would have it, they did not choose me. In fact, they never gave me a clear yes/no and technically I'm still waiting for their feedback. Wait, I'm not. Am I ? Any-who!
So there was a lot of frustration, anger and helplessness. It's so weird - I wasn't even looking for a job when this came my way and ever since this incident I just cannot get to appreciate my current job anymore. I know it's stupid. It's like life is perfect, it's all lalala..and then BAM! And thereafter, it's just not the same anymore. I know I am unnecessarily fretting over it. It was never meant to be. However, one thing that I have been asking myself ever since is that what was the point of it all? I mean three months of immense stress, immense hope and intermittent successes - only to be all wiped off!
And then today I was watching this movie about a young woman who finds (true) love at the age of 19. She falls head over heels in love with this guy only to be loved back as much. Her entire life changes, they get married and settle blissfully into a happy life. All is perfect with the world when suddenly out of the blue, the guy dies. Yes, dies!
So obviously this woman is all heart broken. One day she breaks down before her mum and laments that what was the point of it all. How could life be so terribly unfair to her? If the guy had to die so soon anyway, what was THE POINT OF IT all??
Now, this really struck me. Wasn't I trying to reason with myself exactly the same thing? Well, accept it or not, life is unfair. And not just at times! Everything is just so random.
I decided I'm not going to lament over this episode anymore. Bigger tragedies strike people. And sometimes all too randomly, without them having to do anything at all to trigger it in the first place. You cannot always have everything planned AND executed. Sometimes the string snaps in between.
If you have ever faced a similar WHATS-THE-POINT incident, just let go. It did not work out because it was never meant to.
Move on. Move strong.
And as life/luck/randomness would have it, they did not choose me. In fact, they never gave me a clear yes/no and technically I'm still waiting for their feedback. Wait, I'm not. Am I ? Any-who!
So there was a lot of frustration, anger and helplessness. It's so weird - I wasn't even looking for a job when this came my way and ever since this incident I just cannot get to appreciate my current job anymore. I know it's stupid. It's like life is perfect, it's all lalala..and then BAM! And thereafter, it's just not the same anymore. I know I am unnecessarily fretting over it. It was never meant to be. However, one thing that I have been asking myself ever since is that what was the point of it all? I mean three months of immense stress, immense hope and intermittent successes - only to be all wiped off!
And then today I was watching this movie about a young woman who finds (true) love at the age of 19. She falls head over heels in love with this guy only to be loved back as much. Her entire life changes, they get married and settle blissfully into a happy life. All is perfect with the world when suddenly out of the blue, the guy dies. Yes, dies!
So obviously this woman is all heart broken. One day she breaks down before her mum and laments that what was the point of it all. How could life be so terribly unfair to her? If the guy had to die so soon anyway, what was THE POINT OF IT all??
Now, this really struck me. Wasn't I trying to reason with myself exactly the same thing? Well, accept it or not, life is unfair. And not just at times! Everything is just so random.
I decided I'm not going to lament over this episode anymore. Bigger tragedies strike people. And sometimes all too randomly, without them having to do anything at all to trigger it in the first place. You cannot always have everything planned AND executed. Sometimes the string snaps in between.
If you have ever faced a similar WHATS-THE-POINT incident, just let go. It did not work out because it was never meant to.
Move on. Move strong.
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